Finding Your Purpose

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28).

Ever feel like you were made to do something bigger than what you’re doing right now? Ever ask the question, why was I born? What’s my purpose?

I asked myself those questions constantly. On the news, I would see missionaries going to third world countries to help the poor, and I couldn’t help but think, wow these people are so lucky. They have found their purpose in life, and they are living it out everyday.

But how could I ever do that? It seemed overwhelmingly impossible to me. I’m just a mom of three kids who struggles to accomplish the mundane everyday tasks of bathing, feeding, and cleaning, never mind flying across the world to help the poor.

I wondered, is that my only purpose in life? To take care of my kids and clean my house? Don’t get me wrong, I know it’s an important one, but there must be more.

Deep down I felt like I was missing out on something. Some days the strong urge to be a part of something bigger would consume me. Those were the hard days.

I prayed to God that he would use me for his purpose and that he would show me what path I was supposed to take. But I never felt like I was getting an answer, or at least the answer I wanted.

After I would pray I kept having this thought that I needed to stop drinking. It was such a random notion that I breezed right past it. It had nothing to do with finding my purpose, plus I loved wine at the end of a long day. I refused to believe that it was God asking me to give it up.

So I pushed those thoughts aside until one day I prayed and started to ask why? Why did I have to give up something that I loved?

And the voice whispered back, “I need to know you love me first, more than you love those other things. Take that leap of faith for me and I will show you your purpose.”

I knew at that point it must have been God, because it definitely wasn’t me, and every time I prayed, I kept hearing the same answer.

After wrestling a long and stubborn battle, I finally gave in. I got to the point where I wanted to stop feeling worthless and instead find my purpose.  I wanted it so badly that my heart ached for it and so I took that leap of faith.

It’s been a slow and challenging process yet in the midst of it all he has calmed my restlessness and freed me from my discontentment. He’s opened doors that I never thought were possible like starting to write and share my story. And I know this is only the beginning. I can’t wait to see where he takes me next.

It’s comforting to no longer have to wrestle with my guilt or feel like I’m missing out. I’ve done what I had to do and know it’s Gods turn to show me what’s next.

Have you ever felt God calling you to do something? Have you been wrestling with it for a while? Chances are there’s a reason for it. If it feels overwhelming, try to take a baby step and ask God to help you. Ask him to open the doors, if that’s what you’re supposed to do. He is a faithful God if you sincerely ask and follow him.

Take that leap of faith and see what happens!

 

One thought on “Finding Your Purpose

  1. I have wrestled with my calling for quite some time. I am certainly jealous of those who seem to have that perfect clarity. My own journey is starting to lead me more to embrace that my purpose may not be a specific 1 trip or job with a specific title. If I am aware of those things that excite me and fulfill me (helping others) and do it for the purpose of honoring God it will lead me down the right path.

    Your struggle is great and will benefit not only you but your kids as well. Many people just allow life to pass them by.

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