You are not alone!
I grew up as the quintessential “good girl” Christian. My life revolved around the church; I spent my days going to church on Sundays, attending youth groups on Fridays and playing in a Junior Youth Band on Thursdays. It’s also where I met the first boy I ever loved. I thought God had created us to be together, and I was hurt when things didn’t work out. The life I envisioned God made for me was gone, and I felt betrayed.
As I entered high school, I began to detest the church and everything it stood for. In my eyes, the messages they preached was a false narrative and irrelevant as they didn’t address the real-world problems that I faced. So, I walked away from God and the church.